I still have nightmares watching her slice her arms thinking this woman is committing suicide and its because of me. There are days where apropos of nothing, just alone in my thoughts I flashback to her explaining what she had done. Her gleefully telling me she fucked 2 dudes, and then her going on to fuck more and tell me half of the truth about it. To be clear it has nothing to do with her fucking a bunch of people. That’s not important to me at all. What is important and incredibly depressing is that Simi wanted to hurt me even more after the fake suicide attempt.